okay, i’ll stop blogging here from now on.. due to complaints of inconvenience to comment.. =)
so here’s the link to my new blog..
feel free to drop by and check out what’s new ya..
but pardon me if it’s not as ‘canggih’ as most of yours.. =D
have you ever..
- have this feeling of being
torn apart by two sides, until you are not sure whether you could come out of
it alive?
- feel so guilty for
hurting your loved ones that you just couldn’t stop crying?
- want to say sorry to
so many people that you don’t know who to start with?
- tasted the feeling of
being high in the air, and suddenly plunge towards the ground?
- feel so helpless that
you just wish everything would disappear, or rather, you would just vanish into
thin air?
- decided to take the
tough way out, although you knew fairly well that the easier way is what’s best
for you?
well, i have gone through all those in less than 24
hours, and im seriously wondering whether im still breathing…
okay lah, felt guilty for leaving my blog unattended for
some time d.. (apart from the few occasional posts, which i myself find it hard
to understand.. =D) so, here’s an update of what i’ve been doing to myself
recently..
after penang, there was the chaotic two weeks of teaching
in the quite-well-paid *wink* primary school. after that, just have been hanging out with friends.. thanks to joyce,
we had quite an outing on friday, which started off with a visit to the klcc
skybridge, followed by karaoke at times square, and a fabulous movie ‘Kungfu
Panda’ which i had laughed from the very beginning till the end (partly also
laughing at princess’s laugher.. hehe..) , and a superb steamboat dinner at
Uncle Duck. had so much fun, although i must really stress here that i was the
orange-shirt TEACHER of the group of kids (refer to HRF kim’s blog), n i drank
LALA soup, not LALAT!!! but as for the waving to bald man part, yeah, have to
admit, i was the first to wave.. paiseh.. hehe.. *blushing*
saturday night was spent with former form 6 classmates at
ampang look out point.. was really nice meeting up with so many of them (21)
after so long.. (our gatherings are not often) n the place is great too,
coursemates, we must go one day ya!! then can do cam-whoring there.. hehe..
oh ya, forgot to mention, after the friday outing, came
back to check my results.. erm, did well la, better than expected.. will not
reveal here my results though.. it shall be my utmost secret till i die.. =)
yesterday morning, registered for next semester’s course,
n was glad that most of us managed to grab what we had in mind.. although im
still not too sure about the Magazine Publishing thingy that i had registered
though.. will play by ear lah.. kinda interested in so many KOK courses that
it’s hard to decide..
as for the rest of the holidays, will try my very best
not to flunk my piano exam too badly.. n also entertain myself by reading ur
blogs la.. i do read, k! just sometimes dunno what to comment.. so don’t go
into hiatus la ya (referring to our beloved bird-of-the-class..) =D
another thing is, i’ve already created a blogger account,
but the settings and all seem a lil troublesome lah.. so undecided whether to
proceed with my blog-shifting.. will let u know soon.. in the meantime, this is
all i’ve got, so bear with me ya.. =)
miss all of ya loads…
after their separation, d gurl and d guy went on separate ways, each busy with their studies and job respectively.. however, d gurl has made a secret vow, she hopes to see d guy find his other half first, b4 d gurl moves into another relationship.. d gurl was selfish.. she was hoping to make herself feel better n guilt-free by waiting n seeing that d guy is happy.. her friends said she was foolish..
today, d gurl was told that d guy has found someone he likes, and is trying to go after his dream girl.. d gurl is glad at this news, happy for d guy, but she feels a tug at her heart.. she could finally put down the weight on her shoulders.. she feels much lighter.. at the same time, the emotions keep rushing back.. how she met d guy, how they spent time together, how she had hurt d guy..
all d gurl hope now, is for the guy to be truly happy..
heard this song today, not a new one though.. just totally agree with the lyrics..
梁詠琪-原來愛情這麼傷
詞曲:彭學斌 製作:馬玉芬
製作歌詞：企ㄚˊ
我睜開眼睛 卻感覺不到天亮
東西吃一半 莫名其妙哭一場
我忍住不想 時間變得更漫長
也與你有關 否則又開始胡思亂想
我日月無光 忙得不知所以然
找朋友交談 其實卻幫不上忙
以為會習慣 有你在才是習慣
你曾住在我心上 現在空了一個地方
原來愛情這麼傷 比想像中還難
淚水總是不聽話 幸福躲起來不聲不響
太多道理太牽強 道理全是一樣
說的時候很簡單 愛上後卻陣腳大亂
只想變的堅強 強到能夠去忘
無所謂悲傷 只要學會抵抗
原來愛情這麼傷
原來愛情是這樣 這樣峰迴路轉
淚水明明流不乾 瞎了眼還要再愛一趟
有一天終於打完 思念的一場戰
回過頭再看一看
原來愛情那麼傷
下次還會不會這樣
it has been a long day.. full of adventures.. today is teachers’ day, so the school had a simple ceremony to celebrate.. b4 i went to the hall, i heard n saw 2 parents (dads) scolding each other so loudly.. they were like kids.. challenging each other to fight or something.. the reason, i think, has to do with their kids fighting.. some teachers managed to separate them, but i saw them walking out of the hall together, probably going to ‘settle’ it somewhere else.. unbelievable..
then came the teachers’ day celebration.. where all teachers had to sing a song n cut the cake.. aih.. tried so hard to get out of it but couldn’t.. anyway, i tried my very best to look smart n like a teacher.. bluff my way through.. funny thing is, even though i only taught there for a few days, i received presents, flowers, cards n cakes too.. hehe.. so sweet..
but then, good things don’t last.. i had the last period with the std 6 rascals.. so i had my fingers crossed that everything would go smoothly today.. however, god din hear my prayers.. i went in, they were talking n talking as usual.. i was so tired of shouting, so they just ignored me completely.. some still listened to what i said.. but after a while, i heard someone telling me, ‘teacher, someone called u a b*stard’.. i was so shocked i din know how to react.. den that person said ‘no la, not u la..’.. but i was so angry.. my tears really threatened to come out d.. i just couldn’t say a word more.. so i just kept quiet, n kept all my stuff, grab my bag, n stood at the door, waiting for the bell to go off..
after that, i walked back to the office, went to the washroom, n the tears just came all out.. i know, im a lousy teacher.. din know how to handle this kinda situation.. cried for a while, composed myself, n went back to the office to do my stuff..
when i was still busy comforting myself that ‘today is the last day’, the penolong kanan came n asked me whether i could teach for another week.. i was like.. huh?! but i said okay la, coz it’s not very nice of me to just walk off like that.. but then, i told him that i couldn’t handle the std 6 class.. he was very kind, n said he’ll go talk to them or sth.. aih.. i think that would only make matters worse.. i wonder how m i gonna survive next week??
AND, i had marked around 1000 books today itself.. (4 books per class x 7 classes x at least 40 students = lost count d).. coz the headmaster wants to check the books on tues.. n my beloved students all decided to hand in last minute (today).. so i was marking n marking.. dried 2 red pens.. by 4.30pm, i was seeing many many bintang-bintang d..
ahh.. long long day.. long post too.. n i take back what i said earlier, that i prefer teaching kids than dealing with adults.. ahhh.. i shall just go get married n not work, so the only person i have to deal with is my husband.. grrrrrrrr….
okay, before i begin, sorry for not posting anything about penang, coz everyone else had written so much, u guys had everything covered.. hehe..
back to my current title.. yes, i fought (not literally la) with a kid today.. i know, i know.. everyone who heard this gave me a ‘oh-my-god-serious-ah’ look.. styan asked me to pick someone my size.. but i just couldn’t help myself.. was so angry..
for those who dun know, im teaching temporarily in a primary school.. i teach stds 2, 3, 5 and 6.. so today, i went into my std 6 class, as usual, they were busy talking when i was talking, busy talking when i was NOT talking.. then i asked them to do some work in class.. den this boy was at his friend’s desk, copying his work.. den i went over n asked him what the problem.. n he was like “ah..nothing lah..” den just walked back to his place irritably.. den i asked him what’s his problem la.. n he gave me the answer which left me so shocked n tongue tied.. he said, ‘没有问题，不爽罢了’ (no problem, just ‘bu shuang’ – not thrilled or something to that effect).. den i said, im also ‘bu shuang’, den i don’t need to teach la.. then he mumbled something in return.. i was speechless.. i had to leave to classroom coz i was afraid my tears would come down anytime.. i was furious.. frustrated.. den went back to the office n do my stuff..
after that the monitor of that class came n told me that i still have one more period.. so, i walked back slowly to the class, din even bother to take my books with me.. went back, everyone was quiet.. had to do something with the remaining time.. so i asked questions n they had to answer.. then the boy raised his hands to answer.. so i looked at him, n said ‘im ‘bu shuang’ now, how?’.. den he looked at me n din know what to say.. den i asked him ‘u want to say sorry or not?’.. so he quickly said ‘sorry’, i said ‘accepted’, n he answered the question..
i know i shouldn’t have said what i had said.. but i just couldn’t bear myself.. i was so angry.. but the boy is std 6 d, so he needs to save his face oso..
ahh.. this episode had made my day so miserable..
but to look at the bright side, i have received a number of teachers’ day cards (tmr is teachers’ day), with very sweet messages inside.. =) they are so cute.. hehe..
hahahahahaha.. can’t stop grinning from ear to ear!!
FINISH exams d today!! woohoo… *jumping up n down*
tomorrow will go n reunite with my soul in penang, which had flown there weeks ago!!
off we go to penang!! =D
tell more when im back!! cheers..
“He’s out of love with you because you’re too fat. Just look in the mirror and accept this obvious fact.”
when i saw this personal message in msn just now, i just couldn’t help myself n got into an argument with the guy who wrote this.. he’s a friend of a friend, no one i know personally..
i was rather pissed, as i seriously think that being fat is not something a person has a say on.. not everyone is able to be as what they wish they would be.. n it turned out that, he was trying to tell a girl friend that, so that she would be able to get over a guy.. so i told him my point of view, saying that it’s rather harsh to tell a girl that.. but he din budge an inch.. still firm with his view.. saying : “it’s not like if someone tells her this her family are gonna die…” probably his intentions were good, but i dun agree with the way he handles things..
he’s the most direct person i’ve ever met!!! he’s really good at words.. so i kinda lost at our debate! but it kinda bugs me knowing that that’s the real world, where ppl like him are abundant.. they would say whatever they wish.. without considering other ppl’s feelings.. i was really tempted to ask whether he had ever heard of the word ‘politeness’, or even ‘euphemisms’..
maybe it’s also due to his background, as he works for the newspapers, n being critical is a necessity?? i was seriously trying to look for excuses for the way he acts, but.. was he being ‘direct’? or was he just pure ‘rude’??
when my friends told me that the movie was good, i din know that it was THAT good!! ‘I am legend’.. so touching!! cried like nobody’s business leh!!
know im kinda outdated d, only today i sat myself down, n watched it.. but b4 that, i started off with another movie, a highschool-comedy-kind (dunno what is it called for its genre) ‘Bring it on, in it to win it’.. was good too, had much fun watching all the cheers done in the movie.. anyway, back to legend.. as i was saying, it was kind of a sad story.. where a virus attack had almost wiped out the entire human population, with the remaining few who are immune to the virus.. then there was this guy (will smith) n his dog, all alone in new york city.. when the dog died after saving him, i nearly flooded my house with tears!! n also when he reminisced about his wife n daughter when he left them to carry out his duty, more tears came out!!
i mean, it’s bad enough being left all alone, then the only sane n living dog died, it’s like, losing all hope d.. i was so crushed.. cant imagine living all alone.. if i were to be in that situation, dun trust myself to have that courage or determination or patience to keep fighting for survival.. i might just choose to terminate my life as well..
well, din want to write bout this initially.. many of u should have oredi seen the movie.. but the film left me thinking a lot, bout everything.. life n death..
i remember reading some of my friends’ blogs, where they listed the things they want to do b4 they die.. buy a sports car, get married… stuff like that.. hmm.. after giving it some thought, i came up with the one thing that i wish, sincerely, i would do b4 i die: to say ‘I love u’ to my parents and my 2 sisters.. mayb it’s something most of u do everyday.. but the words are kinda hard for me.. so.. fingers crossed.. let me get it done.. one day..
**sorry if this post appeared kinda sad n had dampened ur mood..
